Job?

Hello Readers!

Getting a job in this world is next to impossible. i have never had so much trouble with something in my entire life. i had even had to apply to places that i dont even want to work. every time i have to go somewhere for an application, i have to change clothes take off the nail polish and take off the makeup take a shower comb my hair. its tiering! but in the end it all go towards a good thing. i really want to provide for little clara belle. i really do. i am two payments behing on child support. i mean 75 bucks a month isnt too terrible compared to other payments ive heard of. some are up in the 200 to 300 dollar range. its all i hear about now. did you apply here or apply there? did you call here or call there?


Well, in the end, i do get to see my baby girl everyday. there isnt a day that i dont see her or think about her. i couldnt go a day without seeing her or thinking about her.

I am in the middle of getting my bands first single finished. maybe that will bring in the cash. hopefully.

Getting A Job

Hello readers!

Anybody hiring?

I need a job desperately. Im already a month behind on child support. 75 dollars a month. I know that sounds low when it comes to child support. But to me, its alot when the only money i see is the 20 bucks from mowing the lawn.

The baby is fine. She has started doing this thing where she sticks out her tounge and bites down while talking........its hilarious! She has definitely developed her personality. She is the happiest baby i have ever seen. Shes always smiling or laughing or just being cheerful.

So thats it for tonight. Off to bed.

Seriously any jobs availible.

Send them in.

See ya!

This is an older picture of Clara.

Im Back

Hello readers!!!!!!!!!

sorry for the very long absence. But, i wasnt able to post anythijng for i was in New Orleans!
My creative writing class went for a school trip. It was great to get out of the classroom and to actually experience some diiferent things. In my opinion, thats what writing is all about. You cant have anything to write about if you dont break the rules once and a while. With that said, that week went so slow. It was fun and all, but it was the longest i have been away from my baby girl. I missed her so much. If it wasnt for the picture and video i had of her, i wouldnt have made it.

And on that note, the baby is doing perfectly well! She just had her 8 month check up, and everything is normal. She is actually a little advanced for her age. she did have to get two shots today. I tell you what, it just breaks my heart to see my baby cry. And especailly if its that hard. She was screaming with tears flowing left and right. But, shes pretty tough. She got over it pretty easy.

Well till next time!

See ya!!!!

"Still Sick"

Hey readers.

Sorry im not as enthusiastic as usual. The baby has pneumonia and both of my ears are infected and i have the worst headache ever. I didnt really get a break today because i was the only one home with the baby. I managed to get some homework done.

Well thats all i have to say.

See ya.

"Whoop!!!"

Hello Readers!!!

Sorry its so late. But, clara is very sick. She may actually have whooping cough. This is when the baby is coughing really intensly and haveing trouble breathing and vomiting. Its terrible!!! I cant stand seeing her sick at all. And at the same time, i have ear infections in both ears. And on top of that, my throat is raw, i have head aches and body aches.

Well sorry, but i have to go tend to the baby.

Till next time,

See ya!!!

"Sick...............Again"

Hello Readers!!!

Im sorry to say that me and the baby are sick again. Whenever she gets sick, me courtnee or my mom gets sick. Im sick of being sick. And on top of that, i dont like seeing my baby sick at all. When in first saw her when i got to urgent care, my heart just broke. She had gunk draining from her eyes. Her eyes were very bloodshot. She was very warm. The doctor diagnosed her with conjunctivitus. We were all very happy that it wasnt anything to serious. But, with that said, its always serious when your baby is sick.

And also, flashing back to the weekend, my sister, Hannah, came in from Columbus, OH with her fiance to visit. It was very fun. She doesnt get to see the baby as much. But, im glad to hear that my baby girl will be there for my sisters, her aunts, wedding.

Well, till next time.

See Ya.

"Almost Crawling"

Hello readers!!!

I know i told you i would post every day. I just didnt have time the lat couple of days. But, i promise, that will be the only time i dont.

Well, Clara is doing fine. Shes the same little ball of fire. Shes almost crawling. I cant wait till she does. But, at the same time, i dont want her to. You see, when a baby starts crawling, you have to completely safety proof the space in wich she lives. And with all the stuff that i have laying around, it will take a while to do. I might even have to get rid of certain things.

Courtnee is also fine. Our relationship is a little better then last time i spoke of it. We have gotten better at splitting up the work between the both of us. We try to find time to spend alone time together. The only thing were able to do is go to the occasional movie.

Til next time.

See ya!!!






This is a video of clara laughing.
Its so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!

Suffering Grades

Hello again readers!!!!!

Well, my day was alright. Again like always it started early. But, recently i have noticed that my grades have gone down. This is problably due to my laziness and lack of focus due to lack of sleep. But, im in the middle of fixing them. I staying after school two days a week, and spending more time on homework and my studies. But that still doesnt stop the frequent baby interuptions. im not saying that in a bad way at all. I would so rather spend time with my baby then do homework. The baby has had a good day. It was really nice, when we got home me Clara layed down on the couch and took a nap together for at least an hour. Its always nice when she sleeps because i try to catch up on my sleep at the same time.

Speakng of the baby, here are some pictures of her.

(i relize now that i should have done this awhile back)

Shes cute isnt she?

Well ill talk to you tommorow.

See Ya!!!!

Child Support

Hello Readers!!!!!

I recently made the decision that i will be doing a blog everyday from now on. The content being reflections from that day.

Well, before telling about my day, let me just let you know that i will have to start paying 75 dollars a month towards child support. Im not complaining, im happy to support my baby girl. Also, 75 seems really reasonable compared to other amounts iv heard. Ive heard that eventually the amount will raise up to 200 a month. Wow!!!!!!!!!!!!

My day. I woke up tired and very soar from excercising the night before. Every morning i get up extra early to help Courtnee get the baby ready and get her in her car seat. This is because Courtnee's school starts earlier. Anyway, well i got to school, flew through my first 4 bells like usual then made the slow walk to 5th bell. I only call it that beacause its the start of 4 of the slowest classes ive ever attended. The only class i really worry about is 7th and 8th bell. These two classes are both my creative writing classes, wich is my major at SCPA. I have never had so much work and responsibilities in school before. And on top taking care of a baby and trying to find a job, its madening!!!!!!!!! Well, when i got home i was instantly put into baby mode. Making ba bas, changing diapers, playing with toys, reading books, the works. Then as soon as my mom was able to take over the baby, i started calling around looking for a job. Wich is impossible by the way. No luck yet, but ill get one soon enough. Then my life will be COMPLETELY crazy.

Now here i am, updating my blog and trying to wind down just a little.

See ya tommorow!

All Sorts of Words

Hello readers!!!

Sorry i havnt posted in awhile.

Things have been very hectic.

Clara continues to grow. She can say all kinds of words including Da Da, Baby, and Ma Ma. It blows my mind how fast she grows.

Recently, Courtnee decided to take the baby to her moms for a week one so that her mom could see the baby and two so that me and her could have a break from eachother. When you are so young and you are constantly around your significant other, the tension is high and the stress never seems to subcide. This break actually has helped our relationship very much. it gives us time to relax and not have to constantly be working. although it is very sad to be away from my baby for a whole week..........

Well till next post.

See Ya!!!!!!!!!!

"First Word"

Hello readers!

Long time no log.

The baby is growing and doing better then ever. Beleive it or not, she has said her first word. Da Da! It warms my heart to have her look at me and say da da. Most time she doesnt say it...........she screams it. At the top her lungs over and over.

It has also got to the point where when she bites you, with her two front teath, it hurts. Courtnee, baby momma, says to bite her back and that it will teach her a lesson. I think not! I will never purposally hurt my baby girl. I love her so much. She is all i think about. I wonder what i was doing before she was born.

Courtnee is doing quite well. I am too. But, our relationship isnt. Our relationship has been rocky for awhile. I want to work out. But sometimes i need a break from everything. The constant working and trying to meet her requirements. Its very stressful.

Well i guess until next post.

See ya!!!!

Long Time, No Blog

Hello readers!

I know it has been awhile since my last post, but i have been really busy with school, baby, and christmas. Yes, the baby just experienced her first christmas. It was great. Even though shes only 5 months old so she doesnt really understand the whole idea quite yet. But, with that said, she received more gifts then anyone in the family. She is the newest/coolest fad. By that i mean every conversation involves something aout Clara. It doesnt bother me one bit though.

Christmas included lots of food, presents, and lots and lots of parties. It was definitely a first for my little baby Belle. And yes, she recently turned 5 months old. Its going so fast. It seems like just yesterday when we were rushing to the hospital. She has also been laughing alot more. She has also started eating baby food. Wich makes her vomit ten times more grose. As disgusting as it sounds, Clara actually puked in my mouth the other day. Your not a real parent until one of your kids pukes in your mouth.

Thats it for this post.

See ya!